Filling the dark void of your past with all the happiness, I never realized the sand slipping off my feet. Today I can’t breathe among these people in your blocked list.
Sunday, June 14, 2020
Journey of my fall - A letter.
Monday, June 8, 2020
An overthinker
“I am not dying here.
I am okay.
You don’t worry about me.
Concentrate on yourself.
Stop overthinking.”
How can I not worry about you, when you are my sunshine and
my dreams sets with your thoughts.
When you lost your dream job, you cried for life. After all
it was an end to a journey, which you strived for so hard. Among all, I felt
that pain of yours and couldn’t stop myself from sharing your tears. You had
lost the hope in your career. While managing my career, all I could ever think
was to bring back the hope and boost you back on the career path. Did I overthink then?
You were down with fever and someone from your family should
have arranged a doctor’s visit for you. However, I couldn’t stop myself and
drove down to take you for a doctor’s visit. Did I overthink then?
You know what I overdid then? I overloved and overcared you.
The one who
overthinks, is the one who overloves and overcares you.
Saturday, June 6, 2020
Boulevard of broken dreams
He couldn’t feel more complete with one hand on steering wheel
and the other hand, snuggled down by the love of his life - his wife. Long
drive on a rainy day is one thing they both always craved for. The only reason
for purchasing an automatic drive was, so he doesn’t have to hold the gear
stick and she could snuggle into his arms while driving. Steering around the
city and countryside, they decided to return home at dawn.
She was very happy with the surprised long drive, which she
yearned for long time. On returning home, he pulled her into the shower. He was
quite an environmentalist, when it comes to save water by sharing the shower
*wink*. He excused himself from the shower and instructed her to finish and wait
in their balcony. She got very anxious by his uncanny move. She loved surprises
and he never misses any chance to freak her out. He quickly changed to a boxer
and moved out of the room. She also got into his white long t-shirt. His
clothes are where she finds comfort in.
Holding their favorite red wine bottle and 2 wine glasses,
he stepped in to the balcony and asked her to settle down. He perfectly knew how
to plan such romantic surprises for her. Pouring the wine, they settled down
and got comfortable into each other’s arms. Sipping down, they both stared at
the cloudy sky and the drizzling rains. After getting a bit tipsy, he stood up
and lifted her to hold her in his arms. Then he walked towards their bed and
placed her down very gently. She couldn’t have asked for any more romantic end
to this day. She was super excited to dive into his libido, as they moved
closer to each other.
“Noooooo” he screamed, which brought him back to reality
from the dream. It seemed like this dream was a nightmare for him. Hearing the
scream, his mother walked into his room to check on him. She advised him to
sleep well and left.
‘How can I sleep, when
someone else is living my dreams?’ he exclaimed and dug his face into
cushions, so they could absorb his tears for rest of the night.
Friday, June 5, 2020
Inception of illusion
“Hey, does this look good?” he paused his walk and turned
his attention towards the voice from kitchen. His sister was holding the cake;
she baked for their parent’s anniversary. He appreciated his sisters baking
skills and continued his walk.
Soon they all gathered in the living room for cake cutting.
Even after persuading by them, he sat a little away and opposite to the
direction, his parents and sister were sitting. They cut the cake, clapped and
congratulated the happy couple. He tried to look content and jovial while they
fed the cake to each other. Then a hand tapped on his shoulder making a
jingling sound of bangles. He looked across his shoulder and followed the sight
of green and golden bangles to the dimpled smile. She was standing there wearing his favorite salwar suit. The twinkling mangalsutra and red bindi on
her forehead added to her angelic beauty. Her sight cheered his face as lit.
“Come, let’s feed the cake to mom and dad” and she pulled him out of the chair.
They both fed the cake and took his parents blessings. His sister pulled her
phone and asked everyone to gather for a family selfie. The entire family stood
together with him putting his one arm across his mother and other across his
wife. After few clicks, she showed the pictures to her brother. He swiped the
pictures back and forth with wide eyes as if he is looking for something in
them. “Ain’t the pictures good?” his sister quizzed looking at his expressions.
“Look, how beautiful this picture is, all four of us together” she said
pointing at a picture. “Four of us!” he exclaimed.
He couldn’t find her in the pictures. She was missing from
the family picture. No, she was missing from the family. No, wait, she was missing
from his life altogether.
He was stuck in the inception of his illusions.
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